define: spontaneous

I found something that I lost...

me.

I was so caught up in trying to please someone who wanted me to change that I had disregarded what makes me myself.
fuk that!

I will never be able to plan my entire day start to finish down to the minute. Quite honestly, I think doing that is stupid. and causes stress. and stress makes you die.

I am spontaneous. I love to go with the flow. I will always be happy. and that is how I live.

so I woke up on saturday and called ed:
me: "we're going driving, and driving, and driving, and then we will camp!"
ed: "where?"
me: "south! ... ALL THE WAY!!!"

the second I let go, I felt AMAZING. a sense of euphoria surrounded me and I felt alive again.



wb Jay

listening to: deadmau5 - Strobe